We took a walk today because we both needed it.
We went truck-spotting around our neighborhood. He held my hand the whole way.
We walked slowly and chose our path as we went. I breathed in the crisp autumn air and let my worries float away on the wind. I felt the warmth of the sun on my face and felt the sturdy trust of his hand in mine.
As we prepare for battle it is important to focus on the peaceful place of stillness we hold inside, the place of love that will bring us home.
This past season has been one of testing- testing my faith, testing my patience, testing my trust. With only a few days..weeks..to go before we welcome baby boy #2 into this world, I cherished this quiet walk with my firstborn. I hung on his every word as he told me how rain drops came to be on the fallen leaves along the sidewalk, how good the the breeze felt, when he explained how the bulldozer and backhoe worked, how the bushes tickled his hand as he walked past. I tucked away the memories of him tasting the rain water, jumping with his shadow, and the way he jumped and the big grin that appeared on his face when the “big semi truck” honked at him after he waved at it.
On the way home he turned to me and silently asked me to carry him by raising his arms up to me. And I did, even though it was hard, even though I’m very pregnant and it got hot and the sciatic pain my right leg and hip began to act up. I carried him all the way home with his head resting on my shoulder and his eyes half closed as if he knew that this was just what I needed- to hold him and breathe him in and feel him relax against me as if I was his only tether to this world.